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It's been two months. It's long, but it's perhaps more frequent than it's ever been lol... Let me set up goals for myself. Perhaps one post per month. It's a long time, but baby steps is the way to go, as I learn. It's a Vlog for me and I see that writing about my thoughts helps me organize my mind.
Bad news first. A close friend of mine named Alexander has passed away recently. Unfortunately took his own life. I don't think I ever mentioned him here, but we met when we were kids back 2006 or so. When I started this blog in about 2010, I was about 11 years old, I had lost contact with him since I had just come back from the US. I reached out to him againt in around 2015. He was with us on my 2016 birthday party, we went bowling and gave him the nickname "Texas". Long story short, him and one of my other friends along with me, were dealing with depression. That was me and Kevin (another childhood friend I probably mentioned here). Here we were in 2022, me and Kevin managing to get our lives back in track, but not Texas. He stayed behind and just got worse, despite trying to fight back, despite us trying to help him in any way shape or form.
That was the more painful things to deal with. Never before has someone so close to me perished like that, even worse going out this way. I'm keeping in touch with his mom and one of his other closest friends. A really friendly fella called Gus. We went out to a cafe together 2 days ago so we could get closer and maybe go along with a decent friendship. There are a couple things left to be resolved about this story so for now I just want to put an end to this whole story, as my friend Kevin said.
The other negative surprises were just inconvieniences. I work as an animator, so had to pay a hefty price for a 12 month Toon Boom subscription to work. It was black friday, so I had to take that chance. But I'm doing my best to save my cash... Next month won't be so pretty either, despite my automatic expenses (bills, church, personal), I promised my grandma the first thing I'd purchase was my driver's license course. (Which I don't have one yet). But I am looking foward to that.
My new job is ongoing steadily. I don't like it much but it's a way to keep going, also it pays decently well, so I'm alright. At the moment I'm making private streams and only showing it to my friends and family to keep me going with work and remain productive. Got a copyright strike for watching 5 min of "The Fox and the Hound" during my break, but it's okay, I have a secondary channel. Plus this strike will dissappear after 3 months, then I can upload and stream again.
I recently made a well-documented rant about GIMP on Reddit.
It's just funny, that ever since I started trying to use GIMP as a kid back in 2010 or so, it's still sucky and terrible. Guess it's just the way things go for these guys and looking at the comments, it seems I'm not alone. Abridged version of my rant? Use Krita instead, it's amazing.
Overall, I'm doing better, learning to keep relationships well with people, despite their flaws and become more productive, focused and creative. I'm getting in touch with a cousin of mine, which I was rather close to, before he left off to the US. Feel like my relationship with God is improving, in the regard that I can look foward to the horizon again. Funny thing to say, despite all the chaos and seemingly world-ending phenomena around me.
The last and best thing I'd like to add. Outside of my ordinary work, during my free time, I am slowly progressing on making my first game with a friend I made back in high school. Turns out he knows a decent amount of programming. So I'll be making the art and he'll be making the code. It's something that's also really pushing me to go through with this.
I'll leave you with my desktop wallpaper. Everytime I boot up my computer and look at it, I contemplate the bliss of my dreams. It's night and dark, but if you can find a place you can see the horizon between the sky and Earth, you will have "your head in the stars".
